I'm loony.. like, totally.. fer shure

my plan was to update weekly.. not that my life is all that interesting.
          but it makes me do stuff, so I have something to talk about..
force a social life.. to write about your social life.

so after that fun-filled, non-holiday weekend.. we needed to have a fun-filled HOLIDAY weekend.
          and what happened??  nothing !! like totally, fer shure..

Friday was a lay-low night.. good thing cuz I wasn't all there.  that night was spent in the bathroom every 5 minutes for a whole lot of nothing.. got about 2 hours sleep, and was up since 1 am..
Saturday.. still sort of in the bathroom, didn't want to go anywhere.. need to stay local.. at least I was in the bathroom every 20 minutes, instead of every 5.. woo-hoo!  that's progress!
Sunday.. went to our friends' apartment.. they live about 10 minutes away, so it's do-able. yummy bbq-d grubbing.. music & conversation.. life's good.
Monday.. lay low, enjoy the last free day before Ron had to go back to work
besides it's been hotter than hell - like, literally.. so needed to hide from the sun for one more day.

Tuesday, went for my morning run.. changed clothes, and went walking with my friend. came home and felt SO lazy.. oh well, maybe still on weekend-mode. no big whoop (especially after Friday night, think I was still recovering from the lack of sleep). started having cramps.. which turned into stomach pains.  by later afternoon, I was in miserable pain. took a gas-ex pill hoping to satisfy the pain.. by bedtime (10pm..) the pain was really annoying and I was too tired to care.
Wednesday, woke up okay, wasn't in the mood for a run though.. went walking with my friend, and when I came home I felt SO lazy again.. took a nap for about 4 hours! :P got up and finished accomplishing something for the day..
Thursday.. same.  woke up okay but wasn't in the mood for a run.. went walking and came home tired.. took a 6-hour nap.. then got up and accomplished something for the day.
Friday.. same.. woke up okay.. no run.. went walking and came home and took a nap.. 7 hours.. got up and moved from couch to bed.. slept 4 more hours.. got up and socialized with the neighbors.  had my gatorade, my ginger ale, and sat listening to them all talk.. got fresh air (out of the stuffy house) and sat in the dark where there was no sun (still warm, but not hotter than hell)
Saturday.. woke up 1am to throw up, dry-heaves (NO FUN !!) - painful.. back to bed and slept.. spent the whole day on the couch.. ate a smidge of breakfast about 2pm.. not in the mood for food, not in the mood for anything.. listened to the TV (hurt my eyes to "watch").. in and out of naps all day long.. throw up again 9pm.. not dry heaves this time (thankful for that..).. in bed usual time.. slept thru the night.
Sunday.. woke up normal time.. felt a little better.. had some real food.. still not in the mood for food.. another day on the couch.. not 100% though.  parentals came to pick up their foo-foo midget dog "Misty".. once they were gone, THEN I could sleep and be lazy..

back to normal grind.. Ron leaves for work, I get up to silence the squawking pigeon. still haven't gone running.  hard to get back into routine after being out of it for so long.. and this heat is just insane.. by 7:30 it's already too hot.. running would just make that so much worse. still walking with my friend 8:15.. 4 days a week (haven't seemed to get a whole week in there.. maybe next week?)

once I'm home from my walk.. turn on the a/c.. sit at the computer job-hunting.. yeah.. loads of fun, I know. can't find a job if I don't apply.. now, if they would just call me back for interviews, I'd be one step closer to 'gainfully employed'.
had 1 interview my first day home.. my sister-in-law.. job paid $7 less than I was making, and would have been a major financial struggle to make ends meet (although job would have been AWESOME otherwise).
had 1 interview exactly 1 month later.. former BAC employee.. new company.. would be new job (they still haven't had an opening yet..) hot muggy Woodland Hills.. no talk of pay.. only talk of what position would be. we went over my past experience, my skills.. what the job 'would' entail.. but, again, no job opening yet.
been sending my resume on anywhere from 6 to 9 job openings a day (except for the week from hell above).. not one call back.  received some 'decline' emails, but even then, most give no response.

this Saturday, we are looking at houses in Frazier Park. our shrinky-dink shoebox house is going to be outside our price range.. even WHEN I do find a job, it won't be the pay I was making, we won't be able to pay rent, let alone other expenses. we have to find something cheaper.  I can't buy a house (since I'm job-less) but getting something under $160K, with the downpayment in my savings account(s), our mortgage payment will be cheaper than rent we pay now.. leaving more money for the gas we'll spend commuting :P

as it stands now, I will probably still be unemployed in Frazier Park.. my severance will end at some point.. so will my unemployment income.. but all that is banked up for living off of until I FINALLY find a J.O.B. !!!!!!!! which of course, doesn't account for the medical insurace :(

oh, please, help me..
let that perfect job come along..
fingers crossed..